As I look back over this past week I am so thankful. For my mental health class it seems as though I have been put with the toughest clinical instructor at a facility that keeps us busy from start to finish. Quite opposite of other groups. My classmates talk about how easy and boring their clinical experience is. They can get homework done or just relax.
On the surface, such an easy time seems very appealing. I would love to have more free time. But, I am looking at the bigger picture. I have had a clinical experience which will be more like my future job. I have had the opportunity to hone my skills and meet the needs of dozens of people. My clinical instructor, by pushing us hard, has given me advantages in my other classes. Just this morning I took a test and was able to answer some of the questions correctly because she had challenged us last week to go above and beyond.
This week I also learned that schizophrenic audio hallucinations are most likely the result of stress. It’s the mind’s way of crying for help. Watching the TED talk that is posted below made me so thankful that I have a God who is willing to take all my issues, worries, and cares upon Himself. Listening to this woman’s story made me wonder why her and not me. I still get stressed out at times. Stress causes imbalances in the body. Christians under stress can have the same consequences sometimes as non-Christians.
I still have sadness, fear, insecurities, and anger that I deal with. Most of the time those things are shoved aside and, for the moment, are non-existent. I am very good at building walls to hide behind. Compared to last year, my ongoing issues are decreasing in intensity and frequency. I don’t think that it is just because I have gotten good at hiding them. I believe that I am seeing more and more evidence that God is moving before me and all around me. I am greatly loved and held tight in His hands. Why can’t I learn that lesson and then remember it?